I want something that’s not real
That doesn’t exist for me
That I can’t have
I want a relationship
with a deep soul connection
I want to feel at home in another
I need to feel at home with myself
this journey my soul chose, I resist it over and over again
this resistance,
this lofty goal,
this burning desire,
this raw, unstoppable, urgent, powerful,
desperate attraction to connection
It’s not unreasonable,
it’s just not mine.
My destiny is elsewhere
it’s me.
showing up for myself
being present to myself
validating myself
knowing without a doubt that God carries me
He always does
and this knowledge, it helps.
and then it doesn’t
because my heart, it wants to connect
more than anything else
so many worldly pleasures that I would gladly forsake for connection
oh, this journey
I want to believe that I chose it.
but I can’t wrap my brain around that
the one thing that I want so badly is just not destined to be mine.
it’s elusive
it slips through my fingers
and every now and then
I get a tiny taste of it and I’m
so relieved and so desperate
at the same time
it’s never enough
and it’s not meant for me
just a tease
just a tickle
a reminder that it exits
that it’s real
that it’s just not mine
and most likely, never will be
and the sooner
I make peace with that
the sooner
I embrace
the more peaceful my life will be
the less I’ll be searching, yearning, longing for all that I already possess
within
for all that exists
in my relationship with God
in a tangible, revealed way
as long as I’m open to experiencing it
to do my part
to nurture that connection
soul speak
wonderful poem.. its just a truth said from heart..
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Beautifully written poem.
And very few persons are in the world who yearn for having this connection.
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Very nice☺️
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Nice mam…
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Thank you 😊
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welcome
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Kira, truly beautiful, it just makes me smile. you are a wonderful poet dear sister…God bless!
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Thank you Brother Wendell. ..have a nice time 😊
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im sure you will feel positive with it ..
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Well written Kiran 🙂
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Thank you Priya
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well written
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Thank you
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dont say thank you
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👌👌👌
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विश्वास है उस पर असीम, यह रिश्ता है अप्रतीम।
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Dhanyawad Snehlata 😊
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Bravo bravo bravo… powerful one… i want something that would awake my sleeping soul 😊😊😊😊
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That’s a huge compliment dear sister 😊
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good one kiran !
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Thank Tina 😊
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😘
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I love it!
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Thank you Aanchal😊
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Beautifully penned, Kiran. It reflects your clear mind and positive thoughts… 🙂
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Humbled 😊 …Maniparna Di
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Beautiful and heartfelt reflections!
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Thank you Pragalbha Di 😊
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Not all that we see belong to us. Not all that we want will come to us. But all that we need will always find its way towards us.
A good-read Kiran. Have a good day! 🙂
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